Sad days

Some days ago a good friend of mine died of cancer. Even though I could reach the town where he was supposed to be in a hospital somewhere... I couldn't find him, not even the right hospital. Ironic, but maybe it had to go like this. I couldn't say good-bye, but I could pray alot... Few days later, as I heard, he died. It's a strange feeling I am struggling with - grief - I suppose... But in a way I feel also closer to God and it makes it easier to stand. It's life.